Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Life Since the BFP

It's been two and half weeks since I first saw that faint second line. One week since I saw a gestational sac in my uterus and was able to believe that I really am pregnant. Like most six-and-a-half-week-pregnant women, I don't really feel pregnant. Sure, I've had a little nausea. Nothing edible sounds very edible to me right now. And the insides of both of my elbows show signs of the varying levels of skill of the lab technicians who took my blood for my betas (speaking of which, I had another set of betas done this weekend, and the results were 11k on Friday and 17k on Sunday).

But otherwise, life goes on humdrum. And I'm pretty happy about that. Change of any kind has the ability to raise my anxiety levels, no matter how excited I am about that change. So I'm very content with easing into the changes of pregnancy.

To be honest, the biggest change so far is the fact that I have to question everything I put in my mouth. All these supplements I was on while TTC, my herbal teas, my lunchmeat, my sleep aids... So far, this has also been the most annoying part of pregnancy, since you can find completely conflicting information about every single pill, food, or beverage you might take (except, of course, illegal drugs, alcohol, or tobacco). I've found that for most OTC drugs I might consider taking, What to Expect While You're Expecting will tell me to avoid them, and I'll find numerous stories on message boards of women who took them through their entire pregnancy and were fine. Of course I've been avoiding them as much as possible. But what if I do get a cold? Or have trouble sleeping? Or, drink tea that contains licorice root for a few weeks before finding out that licorice root is bad for pregnancy (yep, just discovered that one yesterday right after drinking a cup to ease my stomach)? Am I a bad mother already because I didn't follow the most cautious route possible? It's all very confusing.

Anyway, it's not that big of a deal. I'm still holding myself back from completely believing in this whole thing. Seeing the heartbeat (hopefully) next week will help a lot, as will making it five more weeks. In the meantime, I'm praising God and praying for each of you out there who is wading through the muck that is infertility.

Time to force down some yogurt.


Josey said...

There's definitely a ton of conflicting info out there - just follow your gut and be sensible about things. I think a lot of it is just hype & fad. I mean, raw fish? Eat GOOD QUALITY stuff, sure, but you think the women in Japan quit eating sushi when they're pregnant? No.
Soft cheeses? You think the French quit eating camembert & brie when they're pregnant? No.

BUT, if you're feeling anxious about eating anything, then don't. YOU know what your comfort levels are.

Easing into it... I can totally understand why. Hopefully I'll get my BFP someday, and I'm sure I'll be feeling the same way.

So happy to hear your numbers are going up and looking good. Can't wait until you hear that heartbeat!!

Kakunaa said...

It is all kind of unreal, isn't it? I am anxiously awaiting that first u/s! The shock is still palpable. I am so happy for you!

Leslie said...

Wonderful news! I was just wondering what had happened since your last post... I figured no news was good news, and I was right! I am just so excited for you!

I'm just trying to take in as little stuff that I'm not supposed to as possible, but sometimes one does slip up. Normally this has no effect-- but I am keeping an eye on eggs these days after the recent salmonella scare! No more caesar salads for me :(

roadtomotherhood said...

Those betas sound great!!! When my betas reached 25,000 (which you are very close to), my midwife said she was confident there would be a heartbeat. I guess high numbers equals progression, and so that baby of yours must be up to something! I know you won't feel better until you hear confirmation during your ultrasound, but I hope those numbers help you worry a tiny bit less.

As for the food, I feel you. I feel like there is nothing that is really great for me to eat, and if I've seen it on some list of any sort, I usually feel too guilty to eat it because "what if?"

Kelly said...

Sounds like all is going well so far! Sorry about how you're feeling, but that's a good sign! :)

Benadry.l is safe and hopefully will help you sleep?

Oak said...

I read in What to Expect that I shouldn't take anything OTC for constipation. Umexcuseme? The pamphlet from my clinic named three different OTC options so I went with that one since it made me feel better.

There are so many conflicting ideas out there that I say so long as you don't get hammered on Tequila Sunrises everyday, cook meth, bathe in pesticides or go on a strictly MickeyDs diet - you'll be okay!

jill said...

I've always thought the key for the stuff with no real clear yes/no answer is moderation. Wishing you luck figuring it all out :)

Crossed Fingers said...

Whenever I questioned things I asked my doctor and went along with his advice. He has said yes on things people said no about and no on things people say are fine. I figure he went to med school, I just went to google. I'll listen to him over the advice of people on message boards.

Littlest True Blue said...

OMG! Not sure how I missed the BFP announcement! I'm so sorry I haven't congratulated you yet! This is so amazing! I can't wait to hear how the heartbeat appt goes! you are going to do GREAT!